My Eldest Son

I have a child that is almost 26 years old. So I guess he is no longer a child. He has been thru a lot over the past 10+ years. He is on his own with no money, nowhere to live, and he expects others to take care of him.

I have Done everything I can do for him. He is wearing me out. I think he is wearing out everyone he comes in contact with.

I realize he needs family support, but he has burned a lot of bridges along the way. I wish I could go into all the details.

All I can say is that he is alone in the world, and he is struggling to find his place.

I feel for him. I dont know how to help him, or not help him.

Any advise would be welcome. If you have a question just let me know and I will try to answer it.

Thank you in advance

MeMe from Melissa

What is your occupation? Collector for hospitals

>>When was the last time you cried? Just a few days ago

>What are you afraid of? The dark, heights, spiders

>Do you like banana sandwiches? No

>What are you listening to right now? nothing

>>What was the last thing you ate? Oatmeal

>Do you wish on stars? yes

>>If you were a color, what would you be? Purple or Pink

>What is the weather right now? Cloudy, more snow on the way

Last person you spoke to on the phone? My Oldest son.

>Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes!

>>How old are you today? 47

>>Have you ever dyed your hair? Just once

>>Do you wear contacts, or glasses? Glasses

>Favorite month? Do I have to pick one?

>Favorite food? Hum , I am not really sure I have one

>>What was the last movie you watched? Have not watch one lately.

>Favorite day of the year? Valentines

>What do you do to vent anger? I hold it in for a while, then I talk to someone to vent

>What was your favorite toy as a child? Cant remember, that was to long ago

>>Fall or Spring? Spring

>>Hugs or kisses? Kisses

>Cherry or Blueberry? definatly Cherry

>>Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? Yes and, I want them to blog!!!!!

>Who is most likely to respond? Lisa

>Who is least likely to respond? who cares?

>What is on the floor of your closet? shoes

>>Who is the friend you have had the longest? Angie, and My sister Lisa

>Plain, cheese or spicy hamburger? Cheese

>Favorite car? 69 ford mustang convertible. red please. I agree w/Melissa on this one

>Favorite dog breed? Black Lab

>Number of keys on your key ring? that would require me to get up and look

>>How many years at your current job? 1 ½ years

>How many states have you lived in? 4

>How many cities have you lived in? 7

>How are you dressed? Skirt, top and socks and shoes

>How many countries have you traveled to? 0

>When is your Birthday? Info I won't put on the computer but I will say it's in October. The best month of the year, other than Feburary, but then there is December, and Lets not forget July

MeMe From Lisa and Melissa

Thanks to Lisa and Melissa for the MeMe. I love doing them. Please feel free to do the MeMe


A) Four Jobs I have had in my life!

Nurse aide.
Retail sails
Collections
Customer service rep for health ins Co

B) Four Movies I watch over and over (and over)

Dances With Wolves
The Wedding Singer
Meet Joe Black
Somewhere In Time

C) Four Places I have Lived

Utah
Las Vegas, Nevada
Pocetello, Idaho
Colorado

D) Four TV Shows I Love to Watch

House
24
Antique Roadshow
ER

Four Places I have been on vacation

Califorina
Texas

Haven’t been to 4 places

Four Websites I Visit Daily

My Blog Roll & then some
Utah Kids (a yahoo list serve for people who have kids with disabilites)
Email
9 News

Four of My Favorite Foods

Chicken
Spagetti
Roast
Steak

Four Places I Would Rather Be Right Now

Australia
Las Vegas, Nevada
Some Where WARM
New Mexico


SO.. Now you know!!!

What a New Year

It has been quite a start to the new year here. Tons of snow and they are saying we are headed for more.

I know I need to blog more, but I get kind of busy and run out of "TIME". I also need some new suggestions. So feel free to list a few.

Have a wonderful week....

Thank You for stopping by.

Happy White New Year?????

Here we are again, or should I say still. We are all white with snow again. It isn't suppose to stop until Saturday or Sunday.

Has anyone told Mother Nature that Christmas is over? And that we don't need a White New Year?

I was supppose to go to work today, But it is a snow day. Wow an extended Vacation. That part I like. But then again I get cabin fever for being in so long. I have been on vacation all week and I haven't gotten out much because of the weather.

Thank you to Lisa for talking to me on the phone so much so I don't get board.

Have a Fantastic New Year, and Everyone be safe.

Merry White Christmas

When they said "I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas", did they mean Bilzzard?

Well that's what we are getting here. Don't ya just love Colorado weather? I'm not sure if I do. It is suppose to be snowing until tomorrow with blizzard conditions.

So I am indoors, and not outdoors. No driving for me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind a White Christmas, just didn't want the blizzard.

My Christmas shopping is about done, except for my spouse. He may have to wait until after Christmas for his presents.

On another note, I just want to say to my sister Lisa, how much I love her, and appreciate her. She has done so much for me. Thanks Lisa, also for getting me into the blogging world. I am trying to Learn to express myself, but only time can and will tell if I am able to keep this up.

Thank you all for visiting my blog, and Have a wonderful holiday season.

Merry Christmas

It is one week until Christmas. I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

What are your Christmas Traditions?

When I was young we opened one gift, it was always pajama's. When I got married my husband did not like that tradition. So we don't do that any longer. I don't know that we have a lot of traditions right now. My boys are 21 and 25, and dont live close by. I need some new traditions. Any suggestions?

My christmas tree is only about 2-3 feet tall. Not by my choice. I guess I let my husband control the holidays a bit. Hummmmm, guess I better think about that.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday season.

Micro Management

The company I work for says it doesn't Micro manage and is states they dont believe in Micro Management. Well .......

Starting Wednesday they started watching us closer than ever. They are keeping eyes on when we go to the rest room, How long we are gone, in fact they are watching everything we do. It's nuts if you ask me.

But I guess I will have to deal with it until I can find another job. I guess it shouldn't bother me, because I follow the rules. But It does.

Any thoughts? Please let me know

Happy Thanksgiving

T''was the night of Thanksgiving, I just couldn't sleep

I tried counting backwards, I tried counting sheep.
The leftovers beckoned -the dark meat & white
But I fought the temptation with all of my might.
Tossing & turning with anticipation,
The thought of a snack became infatuation.
I raced to the kitchen, flung open the door, &
Gazed at the fridge full of goodies galore.
I gobbled up turkey & buttered potatoes,
Pickles & carrots, beans & tomatoes.
I felt myself swelling so plump & so round,
'Til all of a sudden, I rose off the ground.
I crashed thru the ceiling floating into the sky,
With a mouthful of pudding & a handful of pie.
But, I managed to yell as I soared past the trees,
Happy eating to all,- pass the cranberries please.
May your stuffing be tasty, your turkey be plump.
May your potatoes 'n' gravy have nary a lump.
May your yams be delicious, may your pies take the prize.
May your Thanksgiving dinner stay off of your thighs!

Have a Great Holiday

I am still Around

Sorry it takes me so long to post. Things have been crazy. One son wothout a job and the other one wanting to get married. TOO MUCH.

Any way, Hope every one is doing ok. Thankyou for stopping by. Have a great day.
I will post again soon.

What Do You Do When.........

What do you do when your oldest son comes to you and says he is engaged? Then a few months later he tells you they are expecting a baby in June or July? He hasn't even brought her over to meet us yet. Then tells you they got pregnant on purpose? With no regards to the consequences? Well Ya try to do What I have done. (I think)

You welcome her with open arms when you finely get to meet her. (Still haven't meet her yet)
You tell them you want to be a part of the baby's life. and I think I will pray a lot. I think that's what I will do.

I hope the first time meeting her goes well. It is hard to know that her mother doesnt like my older son. But maybe time will tell.

I will let ya all know as time goes on and how the first meeting goes. Any other ideas? Let me know.

A very long MEME, but a fun one.

1) FIRST NAME? Jewel
2) WERE YOU NAMED AFTER SOMEONE? Yes, a friend of my mothers. She really liked the name. I on the other hand have had my doubts about it.
3) DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? No. Never have
4) LUNCHMEAT? not really. I only like roastbeef
5) KIDS? I love kids. I would have loved to have had more
6) COULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOURSELF? I sure hope so.
7) DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? I use to. But not anymore.
8) DO YOU USE SARCSAM A LOT? Sometimes. It would probably be better if I used it more.
9) DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? No. They were taken out when I was 3.
10) WOULD YOU BUNGEE? NO, AND HELL NO, AND NEVER
11) WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Oatmeal w/rasins
12) DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES BEFORE TAKING THEM OFF? No, I leave them tied and untie them to put them back on.
13) DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? No, but I am working on it. I am having problems with confidence.
14) WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? I have three. they are Mint Chocolate chip, Strawberry, Cholotate
15) SHOE SIZE? 9 1/2
16) RED OR PINK? Pink, Pink, Pink
17) WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Do I have to choose one? My weight, my lackof self confidence.
18) WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My father, my sister and my grandparents.
19) LAST THING YOU ATE? Carrots w/ranch dressing and a diet coke
20) WHAT COLOR OF PANT & SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? I am not wearing pants. I am wearing a jean skirt and black reebok tennis shoes.
21) WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The footballs Broncos vs Cleveland
23) WHAT COLOR OF CRAYON WOULD YOU BE? Purple
24) FAVORITE SMELL? Lilacs, and Roses, and Rasberry Sorbet Yankee Candle
25) WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My mother
26) THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? If they are confident, and happy
27) DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO YOU? Yes, My sister Lisa is great.
28) FAVORITE DRINK? Diet Black Cherry Vanilla Diet Coke.
29) FAVORITE SPORT? To play: Swimming, To watch: Basketball and football.
30) HAT SIZE? I have no clue, I dont care for hats.
31) DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? I wish I did. I wear Glasses.
32) FAVORITE FOOD? My favorite food would be Itilian, and I love T-bone steaks w/a salad and a bake potatoe w/lots of butter
33) SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings. I am not someone who enjoys being scared. I do like a little bit of suspence, but have never cared for scary movies.
34) LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE THEATER? The Notebook.
35) COLOR OF SHIRT YOU ARE WEARING ? Light Blue
36) SUMMER OR WINTER? I like Spring or fall the best.
37) HUGGS OR KISSES? That is a hard one. I like long kisses with a deep long hug.
38) FAVORITE DESSERT? Cheese Cake w/Cherries, or anything w/rasberries
39) WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? None right now.
40) WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I think it was a rerun of House on cable.
41) FAVORITE SOUND? A baby cooing, or Children Laughing
42) ROLLING STONE OR THE BEATLES? Beatles
43) FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN AWAY FROM HOME? Texas, I think.
44) WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? Do I have to name just one? I lke to sew, and do embroidery.
45) WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Payson Ut, October 27th

This was a very long MEME, thanks for Listening. I would love to hear more about you.

Sisters

I have been thinking a lot about my sisters lately. I hate the distance between us. I don't just mean because of where we live, but the fact we hardly ever talk or comunnicate. I am fairly close to a couple of my sisters. But lately they are not talking to me. I have no idea why. I wish I knew what was going on in their lives that has kept them from talkin gto me. I almost feel like I have offended them. I can't thnk of anything I have done though.

B.....Passed away 3 years ago, I was never very close with her, but I did love her dearly.
S.....Is in a world of her own and won't allow any family to talk to her. I feel sorry for her.
J.....This sister is a busy one. She has a daughter and she does so may things for her. Her daughter keeps her busy. J and I have always seemed to get a long. But I can't seem to get a hold of her these days.
L.....The sister I get along with the best, I think. I know she has a lot to do and is busy with her family. She has a lot on her plate. I just wish she knew how much I miss talking to her. I miss our daily conversations. I miss hearing about E and how he is doing. I miss being there for her.
I miss her PERIOD. I hope she knows that.
G.....I have hardly talked to this sister in the past year. I do call her, but she has 4 kids and I can never seem to reach her.
That is a little about my sisters. They are quite a bunch. I love them all, and I miss them. L if you read this, know I love and miss you very much.

Ok here Goes

Ok, I got some Great Ideas from S'mee, so here Goes.

If you could give a million dollars to charity, Whom would it go to and why.

I would give it to a charity that could help my Little Nephew Ethan. He has a lot of needs and I would want the money to go to help him and kids like him. I asked My sister Lisa what would best help him and she said Make a Wish, Primary Childrens, and Shriners. I think if I could only pick one I think it would be Make a Wish. There are so many children that need that wish to help them see a brighter moment. Although Primary Childrens helps and saves so many little lives each day. I think my Wish for Ethan would be a home built for his needs as he grows up and equipment to help him. He is going to need so much as he grows. But I won't have to wory about Love, because his family Loves him very much and I love him bunches. More than anyone knows. That is what I would do if I had a million dollars to send to Charity.

If you could fix any one problem by giving up one of the 5 senses which one would you give up and why.

My first choice would be to give up my vision so that Ethan could have a chance to see the World and the many things around him. The birds, butterflies, cars, Everything.

My second choice would be My ears and hearing. He has ear infections all the time and I wish I could take that from him. He is so handsome and so special. He is always in my thoughts and prayers. I bug his mom all the time for pictures so that I can keep him close to me and to my heart.

Well keep the suggestions comming. Have a great day.

Sorry for not posting in a while

I have been so busy, I didn't realize I hadn't posted in over a week. Yes Lisa, I am blogging. A big Thank you to those who left a comment on this last blog entry. I really appreciated the comments.

Work is going a little better. I am just taking it one day at a time. I am just working on my confidence.

So I am needing Ideas for topics again. So please leave me a comment with some ideas. Be careful what you say Lis.

Need to Vent

I need to vent a little tonight.

I was called into my bosses office this evening. He "advised" me I need to have more confidence in myself. He made comments about how I ask to many questions, and stated I need have the answers, I just need to trust myself. He also made the "comment" that most employers wouldn't be patient with their employees and would just as soon terminate them. I work for a Medical precollections company.

It has some very difficult issues that come up. The supervisors I have had to ask questions to haven't had the answers. He stated that I need to take this as a training lesson.

Part of me accepts this and another part wants to get very and I mean very defensive. I just don't know how to react.

I guess I won't ask questions anymore. I do need to be more confident. But again I am not sure how to feel. I am open to suggestions.

9/11/2006

This is a short Blog entry.

My heart and prayers go out to the family, friends and loved ones of those who lost their lives 9/11/2001.

God Bless AMERICA!

Monday MEME on Friday

Well Lisa thinks I need a new post. So here goes.


1. How often do you blog? I check my blogs everyday, but I don't post something very often. I never know what to talk about.
2. Online Alias: Crypticlady.
3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? Yes, especially when they are children.
4. What do you do most often when you are bored? Watch TV or read blogs.
5. When bathing, which do you wash first? my face
6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? no, longest is probably 24-hrs
7. What color looks best on you? I like Purple, but most people like me in blue or red.
8. What’s your favorite drink? Coke Cola
9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? I believe heaven and hell is something we create right here and now, and I believe that they are places we will go when we die.
10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? Sometimes. I find I keep up more with my online friends than my offline friends.
11. What was your favorite subject in school? I don't remember
12. Are you a perfectionist? Yes.
13. Do you spend more than you can afford? Yes, I try to stay within my means as often as I can though.
14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have love before? YES
15. Do you consider yourself creative? Sometimes, and depending on what I'm doing.
16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? NO.
17. Do you donate time or money to charities? When I can afford to.
18. Have you recently done something that you’ve criticized others for doing? I try not to criticize, but yes, I have been known to put my foot in my mouth a few times.
19. What’s on your mind? My Job and my son
20. Say one nice thing about the person who tagged you and the five people that you are going to tag. Lisa is a very talented and beautiful person and a very special sister.
I want to tag S'mee, Lisa, Val, Island Queen, and Mel

About My Husband

Ok, S'mee wants more info. So here goes.

1) What did I like about my husband when we met? He was kind, fairly good looking, spoiled me, bought me flowers.
2) How did our first date get set up? Through my mother, she set it up for us to meet. He took me to Hotel Utah to "The Roof", it was a restraunt in the hotel, on the top floor. (I don't know if it is still there or not.)
3) Did my family approve? Yes they did, (well at first). Then things go a little hairy when we got engaged.
4) First Impressions? He was handsome, caring, and all aroung a really nice guy.


Ok that's enough for now. More to come. Keep asking questions.

A Few Fact About Me

Ok, someone suggested I talk about what kind of a teenager I was.

Well a boring one. I was the quiet, shy one that sat in the back of the class room. My mom always said it wasn't worth grounding me because I never went anywhere.

How did I meet My hubby:
His office was next to my moms, he saw a picture of me and wanted to meet me. Haven't figured out why. And it has been 26 years.

More to come............. So be on the look out